Grateful.

Today I am grateful for...

• the rain.
• the lady at the gym who pointed the fan toward me. (she could obviously tell I was not feeling it this morning)
• the singles ward. yep, I said it. There are some awesome people I have met there.
• my parents, they let me live in their basement, good deal :)
• music. love that music.
• the man who let me merge into his lane last minute.
• the fact that today is THE LAST DAY I have to dress like a pilgrim for work. Praise the Heavens!
• Thanksgiving is soon. What a good holiday, it gives me an excuse to eat.
• faith. yesterday, I learned a little more about faith. Faith is amazing, it's the way you live your life. I am grateful for faith.

Life is so great. I have no idea what my future holds, but I have a feeling it will be great.

Life is... not perfect, but inspiring. It is so easy for me to get caught up in all the wrong, ungrateful thoughts. I hit a point where I started to dread the very moments that make life worth living. I got frustrated at the fact that nothing I did was ever perfect.

Was it ever supposed to be?

 No, the fact that we mess up and keep trying make us loveable.

 I got frustrated that I don't have a ton to do right now. My life is rarely busy and most of the time I am by myself.

When will my life ever be this simple again?

 I have gotten to know myself so much better, I have gotten a rountine down, I have gotten to know my savior and learned to recognize his voice. 

I was blinded by the fact that I rarely see people, unless they are strangers. Which led to me failing to see that I am surrounded by my family and three best friends who I love.

What more could I need?

 I got frustrated that things never work out with boys.

 Is it supposed to right now?

 obviously not, because I believe in a God that loves me and wants the best for me. It proves that he is very involved in my life. I believe that I am blessed. I know that life is meant to be enjoyed.

Yes, you can find the bad. What you get out of life depends on what you look for. I was obviously looking for all the wrong things. Life is fragile. In a second, someone you love can be gone.

 I noticed daisy on my kitchen counter tonight and almost started to cry. They are beautiful. The fall leaves are beautiful. The snow on the mountains are beautiful. Things change. But change is beautiful. Everything around us changes all the time and the most miserable among us are those who see change as bad. Change is hard, but at the same time change means growth, progression and the movement of time into the future. There are miracles woven into each of my days. I decide what I find, I decide my happiness.